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Family Personal

Something is wrong…

It’s almost a year since I last updated to this blog. Something is wrong with my life at the moment.

Today is the second day my wife has been on sleeping pills. Well, perhaps not sleeping pills, but muscle relaxation supplement. She is having trouble sleeping.

She explains she has a lot of unexplainable pressure, perhaps to do with work, or even Abi. However from what I can see, it has a lot more do to with herself instead.

Ever since giving birth to Abi, she seems to have a difficult time to adjust to the new lifestyle. Perhaps she was too accustomed to her life before marriage where her parents did everything for her. Therefore the transition of becoming a mother was somehow a big change to her.

Even Abi is more than two and a half now, she still cannot quite get used to the life of having a child around. Having a child automatically means more responsibility, it automatically means lesser time for yourself. She does not seem to get used to “having less time”. Every time when I try explaining to her, she seems to think that I am just complaining about her.

Since day one she has been taking my message all wrong.

Now she is probably experiencing psychotropic issue, where she is now so stressed, she cannot sleep normally, thus the muscle relaxation supplement comes in.

What can I do? Now comes to think of it, is it my fault that she is having the problems she is having today? Or is it because the way she was raised hence unable to cope the extra pressure?

I am truly worried. If this drags on, maybe I will need to seek some mental support as well.

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Personal

Madness

Almost five months since my last update. What has happened since my last update? Let’s see, simply put – I am close to madness.

Madness or crazy, either way suit quite well with my life at the moment.

Why?

My life is so unbelievably boring now that sometimes I wonder long much longer I can take it before I just snap and jump off from the roof top of my apartment.

I do not seem to have freedom. I cannot seem to do whatever I want, whenever I want. I am all tied up.

Work is fine. We all need to work. No work, no money right?

Abi is great. It’s great to have a playful kid running around the house. I love it.

So what is wrong? The problem is I just do not seem to have time to do anything.

Every weekend, every time I get a break, I just cannot do anything I like. It seems I am destined to stay home and locked at home. It’s either go to in-laws, or choose to stay home and clean up. Even if I say I don’t want to go to in-laws, I always get questioned as if I am betraying them or something. If I want to go out, I always get this suspicious look as if I am wanting out on purpose just so I can escape from taking care of Abi.

Why can’t I just go out without being questioned? Can I just go out because I am simply bored to death and I want some time for myself?

Or maybe it’s because I don’t social as much, or lack of friends? Friends yah? I don’t think I have much friends nowadays. After being trapped in this prison I built for myself for so long, friends and social life are now something of a distant from me.

I need changes. Otherwise I will seriously go mad.

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Personal

Nice Theme!

I stumbled across this theme which I thought it should look good on My Hourglass. I downloaded and here it is.

I find this theme absolutely gorgeous and the funny thing is because how nice it looks now, it is making me feel more welcome to updating my blog again.

Well, I think I have said it so many times and with Facebookand Abigail already occupying most of blog time, I might have to blog My Hourglass at work.

Anyway, we will see how it goes. Happy blogging Paul! Also, Happy Chinese New Year!

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Gadget/Toy Personal

iPhone 4S

I just purchased my first toy of the year, an iPhone 4S.

I don’t understand why but iPhone in Taiwan is hell expensive. It is like almost double the cost as compared to the U.S. Plus, much less excitement as compared to when I first purchased the iPhone 3G, mostly because the interface is the same and it looks identical to the 4.

Still, it is a great upgrade over the 3G and I love it!

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Personal

My House

Finally! We moved in today. Wow.

The return? A big mortgage for twenty years. Oh well, I hope it’s worth it!

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Personal

Ahh Crap…

I really don’t update much here any more, do I?

Need to find time to do something here…I need some motivation and idea.

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News

Thank you Steve.

Steve Jobs passed away today.

You will be forever missed Steve. A true legend in the technology industry. May you Rest in Peace.

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Personal

Biggest Decision

I seldom write here anymore, but today is different. I, or we as in me and my wife made one of the biggest decisions of our lives.

We purchased an apartment today.

Yep. Our first house. Our very own home.

It is also very expensive, so expensive that my wife and I are now scratching our heads thinking how to pay off the down payment plus a 20-year mortgage.

A bit too late to worry now yah? I think so too.

Other than that it is very expensive, it is also very beautiful. Not a big apartment, but it is well furnished. The layout is great and it also has a great view out the window too.

Yep. This is it. Again, we purchased an apartment. The day before my birthday, we now have our own home.

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Personal

Happy Birthday Abigail!

Today is my daughter’s first birthday. Happy birthday to Abi!

For photos and more, why not just check out her website instead?

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News Sports

Congrats, Mavs!

Thank you Mavs, for beating the Heats.

LeBron can cry with his superstar buddies over the summer!