It’s almost a year since I last updated to this blog. Something is wrong with my life at the moment.
Today is the second day my wife has been on sleeping pills. Well, perhaps not sleeping pills, but muscle relaxation supplement. She is having trouble sleeping.
She explains she has a lot of unexplainable pressure, perhaps to do with work, or even Abi. However from what I can see, it has a lot more do to with herself instead.
Ever since giving birth to Abi, she seems to have a difficult time to adjust to the new lifestyle. Perhaps she was too accustomed to her life before marriage where her parents did everything for her. Therefore the transition of becoming a mother was somehow a big change to her.
Even Abi is more than two and a half now, she still cannot quite get used to the life of having a child around. Having a child automatically means more responsibility, it automatically means lesser time for yourself. She does not seem to get used to “having less time”. Every time when I try explaining to her, she seems to think that I am just complaining about her.
Since day one she has been taking my message all wrong.
Now she is probably experiencing psychotropic issue, where she is now so stressed, she cannot sleep normally, thus the muscle relaxation supplement comes in.
What can I do? Now comes to think of it, is it my fault that she is having the problems she is having today? Or is it because the way she was raised hence unable to cope the extra pressure?
I am truly worried. If this drags on, maybe I will need to seek some mental support as well.