I have been real busy, at work, as usual. Nothing new.
Drank a lot last night and came back home at twelve.
I had mega bad sleep and still got up and went to work.
I just arrived back home again almost two hours ago.
Right now is 12:10am.
I need to wake up in five hours time and jet off to Philippines.
Yah well, nothing new, work is still work.
My work.
Wake up 6:30am, get home 11:00pm. I think my life is getting turned upside down.
It just could not get any worse.
Please, just let me forget this day. Just let me forget!
Got my employee stock option today, and it turned out to be a real surprise.
I got an option for 50 Qisda stocks with share price at NTD 32.80, which can be exercised two years later.
Last year I got an option for 20 stocks with a price around NTD 28.50 (can be exercised next year) and I thought that was a lot! This year they think I worth 50 stock options? My God, I am very happy.
Then again, I will only be REALLY happy if by the time I can exercise them and the share price has gone way up up up high.
Time for calculations…
For every NT 1.00 increase in share price, that is NT 1,000 per stock.
Thus, when I exercise 70 stocks two years later, with a 10.00 increase from 32.80, I get at least NTD 700k (not including the difference from NTD 28.50).
A 20.00 increase means at least 1.4 mil, a 30.00 increase means at least 2.1 mil, an so on.
Say two years later the share price is at least NTD 60.00, then I can buy an Audi A4 Avant 2.0T, in cash.
Then again, I am being over optimistic. What if the share price dropped by then? My options would be more than useless.
I have faith in Qisda, which I think they will do well. So what does this mean for me?
It means I cannot leave this company in the next two years.
Something is wrong, something is very wrong. I don’t know if it’s me or what, but something is definitely not right. Especially the last two weeks or so, I could just feel it.
Not sure if its my expectation, or just difference in personality and background, but this is getting really tough.
First time behind the wheel of a left handed car.
First time driving in Taiwan.
It wasn’t too bad actually.
Now I fee like buying a car even more.
Damn I want the 2008 CR-V.
Man dropped almost 400 points today.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!
Fuck I lost big.
I am still down 30k.
Fuck you fuck you fuck you!
I still remember the first day I joined BenQ, and it felt like yesterday. Even before I knew, it has already been three years.
A lot of things happened, but as long I am still here, I am going to make the most out of it.
Worked overtime, alone.
Ate dinner, alone.
Walked home, alone.
Watched TV, alone.
Slept, alone.
Scary feeling. I don’t like to be alone.