Something is wrong, something is very wrong. I don’t know if it’s me or what, but something is definitely not right. Especially the last two weeks or so, I could just feel it.
Not sure if its my expectation, or just difference in personality and background, but this is getting really tough.
Worked overtime, alone.
Ate dinner, alone.
Walked home, alone.
Watched TV, alone.
Slept, alone.
Scary feeling. I don’t like to be alone.
Sometimes its hard to put feeling aside.
Every word you write jogs a bit of the past.
Like a dated photo album, it jogs recollection of the good, or recollection of the bad.
It is hard not to think about them, it is hard to forget.
Doesn’t matter how hard I try.
The familiar feel always seem to remain.
Would be nice.
I won’t ask you to treat me the same, I won’t ask you to return the same, but I would only ask you for a little bit of respect.
I don’t care when you give me that disgruntled look, I don’t care when you talk in that provocative tone, but I do care when you just don’t care.
A good relationship is when good balance is gained between the two. I give you space, I give you freedom, I can give you more than you give me, but I just hope you don’t take them for granted.
I have been experiencing severe stiff neck since Sunday night. It is unbearably painful.
It hurts when I walk.
It hurts when I sleep.
It hurts while I am on the bus and the bus accelerates or decelerates.
It hurts at this very moment while I type.
I went to the hospital today to find out what was wrong, and the doctor told me I have been having too much pressure at work, and need slow down a little.
Man, tell me something I did not know doctor.
I brought a new wireless AP online which I received at yesterday at work. I happily took it home today but to my surprise the damn thing turned out to be faulty.
What a waste of my time. Now I have to repack it and send it back and it is going to take another ten to twelve days before I can get a new replacement.
Fuck online stores I will never buy online again.
I am back.
It was the most bizarre 24 hours.
It was the craziest 24 hours.
Yet, it was also the most memorable 24 hours.
I made a really crazy decision today, and it will be even more crazy when it happens.
Just call me Crazy.
Emotional tears normally come in response to sadness or sorrow.
Today, I saw tears rolling down your cheeks.
Given the above statement, you were sad.
I was sad, too.
I hope this will not happen again.
New house is almost ready. The phone is ready, internet is ready, most of the furnitures are in place, and yep, the TV is installed this evening as well.
Although the TV is here, but I am not exactly as thrilled at the moment because I cannot use the TV just yet, because the cable guy won’t come until tomorrow night. I have no CD/DVD/HD/BD player of any kind therefore I cannot really test it at all, except just sitting with a blank display.
However, the TV looks gorgeous on its own, the very excellent BenQ SH3741. I would love to get a Sony PS3 to go with it so I can watch full HD BD movies. Maybe that will be the next item in my endless long shopping list.
I was right, I do love the TV more than the house, and I think I will love it even more tomorrow night when I can actually use it.
